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So my sister smashed up her car early this month and its been up to me to find a body shop to fix it and get it going again. I had to do this to it when she first bought it in 02 as a wreak . I just can't wait till its done and I can get mine back from her. Here is some pictures after I built it the fist time, one of the damage, one of during the fix, and the last one is of what it looked like when I picked it up this last Saturday.





We decided to get a complete new paint job this time. Now I went to give it to her and the brakes are messed up now UGGGGGGG if I had any hair I be pulling it out right now.

All I can say is my thoughts and prayers are with the Hudson family.

To those that know me , know that I just love mustangs( yes, really,hehehehe). Well after getting rid of my last one for reasons we will not revisit I have gotten another one. Now this mustang was a friends that I went to school with in High School. He had got it when we were just out of school and was his and his wife's first car. I have always wanted it and this week it is mine. Could I really afford it , well not really but its something that I have wanted so long and when its finished with its restoration it will be awesome. I'm just so glad to have a partner that is supportive of my crazy car stuff and I'm glad to have him to share in my fun with this car. Here are some pictures of the car , keeping in mind it has been in storage since 96.



Stayed tuned for updates on the progress . Hugs to all, and most of all my Partner Rob(rcthebearcub).

Ok so I heard something that really made me giggle yesterday as I watched the news to see if I could leave and go up to Columbus to be with Rob. As they were interviewing a woman that was over the department of highways (ODOT) I heard here explaining how they were having the plows drive side by side on the major roads to clean, and she called this "gang plowing" , at least that's what I was sure she said or was it just my over active horny state of mind,hehhe. All I know is I turned my head to the TV so fast that I swear I heard something snap. Anyway I so hope to get to gt up to Columbus today to see Rob, dang I miss him so. Hugs everyone and try to have fun.

I know this might sound strange but I just had to say goodbye to the car that was my Mom's old car. She had been with us for a long time, but Mom doesn't drive much anymore and we both kinda lost interest in keeping her around. For those of you who know me I'm a big car nut so I get attached to them like there my kids or something. Anyway she done us well while we had her and hope the guy that got it will have as much good luck with it as we did. I know he will fix her up because he has had many like it in the past and jumped at the chance to get one that was in good shape to restore and drive.

OMG. I'm laying here and can't sleep and thinking can anything else go wrong.

My family has had some real shitty things going as of late. First, my nephew was involved in a accidental shooting after someone was trust passing on his property, and we still do not know what the outcome of that will be. Second, my uncle just passed away a few days ago and the viewing is today and funeral is tomorrow, on Christmas Eve no less on his wedding anniversary. How is that for sucking big time? And now I'm back at home early for the weekend because I get a call from my mom late last night telling me that my sister was in a very bad car accident. She is going to be ok but the man that she hit died at the scene. He was on a tractor of some kind after dark with no lights or any markings, and as she came around the blind corner she struck the tractor at full speed. We don't know if he was stopped and working on it , or on it but he ended up under the front of the car. Thank god my other sisters daughter lives very close to where this happened as she came upon this just minutes after it happened and found my sister trying to get the man out from under the car and in shock I'm sure. OMG she so doesn't need this pain and stress, even though its not her fault and no charges going to be filed against her , she has been under so much stress from the thing with her son. I'm so afraid for her emotional well being right now as well my whole family. Well I'm going to go finish balling my eyes out right now.

Merry Christmas......I just don't think so this year............

SURPRISE

Hello everyone. Yes I know I haven't posted for a long, long time but I have been busy with work and looking for new jobs in Columbus. And lets not forget spending my time with the most wonderful partner a guy could have. Love you Rob.

We just had celebrated our 1st year together, Rob can you believe its been a year already. This past year has been the best time of my life and all thanks to you babe. I'm looking forward to many, many more with you sexy. I found a picture of us taken by a good friend of ours William(shelbycub) the fist day we were together,story can be found on Rob's lj(rcthebearcub), and I put it in a picture frame along with a purple glove(tehheehhe,read the story). Rob made me a special edition cd with music of our first year together.It had a cover picture of us together on one of our trips and on the inside a special message for each song. I must say that has to be the best present I have ever got from anyone, because he made it himself from the heart.

This summer has been full of road trips, visiting friends, camping , bear runs and of course the best thing ....quiet evenings with just me and Rob watching movies or listing to our favorite bands or discovering new ones.

Well I know that's not much for now but I will try to post more often. Love you guys BIG HUGS

Ok, I'll bite, go ahead and ask me a question , and I will try to answer the best I can.

So here i set the day after Valentine's Day at Rob's house before leaving to go back to my hometown to work and wonder how it is that I been so lucky in finding such a wonderful guy to have in my life as Rob. I know i haven't posted much lately but find that it's just hard to put into words the happiness that i have found , that and being busy with work and spending time with Rob,heehehe. So i thought i would set down and write a few lines on what has been going on.
I guess i have to say also that for the most part everything that i have been doing besides work mainly involves Rob and he puts some of it in his blog as well i just thought i would just be repeating what has been going on. All i can say the last few months have been the most awesome times in my life and having him to share it with is what has made me happy again. Since October when we met and started dating it has been nothing but no-stop fun and adventure. I recap of those fun times include a trip to Cleveland to see the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, which i have always wanted to see and when he suggested it as one of our first road trips I jumped at the chance to go and so glad i did it was so much fun, we then went to the MidWestBearFest in Indy, which was my first official run to go to and it was so much fun and can't wait till the one in Columbus ,OH. this year, and lastly was a trip just a few weeks ago to Chicago, Il where we met up with friends to go out and have a good time at the local bars ( fun and wrongness was to be had by everyone and i can't wait to go back again, just lets hope it's warm when we do,hehehe). There was local weekend adventures here and their that was fun to do as well(but then again when you got a great guy , they are all good)
So im setting here happier than i ever have and looking forward to the future and the many trips we will be taking together and couldn't think of anyone else i would rather be with,,,,yes life is grand and every day with him is Valentines day.
Hugs to eveyone and to all my friends i hope your future brings happiness and fulfillment in everything you set out to do in your life. BIG BEAR HUGS

Hello everyone , its been awhile since I have taken the time to set down and post, but everything has just been going so good and I just never thought it could be like this.
First of all lets backtrack a few weeks ago. I went up on Thanksgiving to spend it with Rob and with our friends(Tim, Herb, and Johnny, love you guys) that live a few doors down from him. And then on Sat me and Rob went to Rock and Hall of Fame , a place I have always wanted to go, and when Rob brought up the idea of going there I jumped at the chance , I mean what better way to get to see it than with a great guy that im sooooooo crazy about. It was so awesome , and best of all they had the Pink Floyd display back out along with the heads from the Division Bell cover, I had spotted them from across the street as we were walking to the building and I was like is that what I think it is Rob,,and he was like "I think so" , and yes it was , all I can say was it was AWESOME. We stopped at a outlet mall on the way back and looked around some , then later stopped at a town called Ashland to eat and we ended up at a Buffalo Wild Wings. I know there was so much more we did that weekend ,,but I find that every weekend spent with him is so awesome I just can't write everything in. Hmmmmmmm(slight pause, as I remember all the good times) god I have been so happy with him that I just cant believe it.
The next weekend we took it easy for the most part. Went to a party of some great guys in Lancaster and had fun(hehehe,,wink wink)
This last weekend was awesome as well . Mark a friend of Rob's came in with another near and dear friend of ours, William, it was Marks birthday and we all went out to a Girth and Mirth party on Sat., then to the bars. Oh my yes Rick another great guy came in on friday and got to met him at the cup of joe get together and then he came over sat while we were doing stuff around the house and getting ready for the party. Man I just can't say it enough ,,I have a great guy and he has awesome friends, BIG HUGS to all you guys.
Now for this coming weekend,,,all I can say is that im so looking forward to spending a long weekend with Rob and most of all my close friends that I have met in this last crazy , fun, and sometimes upsetting(early in year) year. And all that can be said is that im so looking forward to what all life has to offer with this great man and my close friends. Love you all and most of all you Rob,,,big SMOOCHES. Till next time im outta here,,hehehe

I have had a great time again this weekend. Started out by coming up thursday after work and getting to spend time with Rob. He had to work friday so I just hung out around his place and over at my friends Tim, Herb and Johnnys for a bit. Tim needed to check things out about his car(tags and such) and wanted to find out some things for Rob about getting his car switched to Ohio, and then we went to eat at this nice little chinese restaurant on East Broad. After all of that it was time to get back so I would be their for when Rob got back from work (YAY). When he got home and we (ahem) got done saying hi to each other after his day at work we talked about the day and music of course(have I mentioned that we LOVE the same type of music,,tehe) then decided to to and meet some friends at Cup Of Joe, Rob's friends are so nice and treat me just as if I have been around all along , the are such great guys and Rob is so lucky to have such great friends . Had a good time their and a friend of mine stopped by with his date before they went to eat and out to the club. After we left their we went to meet a real good friend of Robs , Chuck, and go out to eat at a Mexican restaurant on the west side of town(forget the name,,ehehe) and it was awesome. After dinner we went to Chucks to hang a bit and then to the club which is where the tragedy ensued(Insert song here). OMG it seems that anymore when we go to the bar it is entertainment at its best and last night was no disappointment, noting real bad just one guy so drunk/high that he thought he was a stripper at a strip club because he was working the pole,,eheheheheh,,or at least one that he thought he could use at the edge of the dance floor. I am really surprising myself at how much I like dancing and it never hurts to have a great guy to grind up next to,heehhe, luv ya Rob.
Well till next time keep reaching for the starts and keep those wailing arms out of your eyes,,ehhehehe. Hugs to all

I'm setting here on the edge of the bed dreading that I have to leave and go back home to take my mom and sister to do things today, no not dread being with the family ,,,dread of leaving Rob. I so love spending time with him , getting to know each other more and just having fun in general. As I have said before I never dreamed that I would find someone that would make me feel this way again and all of a sudden here he is. So as I look down at him sleeping I wonder what his he dreaming about, or his he dreaming at all. I find it funny that I cant remember if I dream very much at all, if so I don't remember them. But I can tell you this , all I hope is that someone pinches me right now and I find that I'm not dreaming because if I am ,,,,,,,,I don't want to wake up from this dream.

Hugs and Kisses to everyone and hope everyone has HAPPY HOLIDAYS.

Make a list of seven songs you are really into right now. They can be good ones or not ,,just as long as you are really into them right now . Also post the instructions.

Mine are:
1. "The Beautiful Ones" Prince
2. "Mary" Scissor Sisters
3. "It Can't Come Quicly Enough" Scissor Sisters
4. "Jump" Madonna
5. "Cool" Gwen Stefani
6. "Serious" Gwen Stefani
7. "Love" Prince

Woke up with so much on my mind and just have to put it down in words. Hope it makes sense.

PAST:
I have been living in the past for some time now and have finely come to the point in my life to move on and I am so glad for this(as my friends will be happy as well,thank you Tim, Herb, Chris, and most of all William for helping me alot and helping me find Rob). This involves my ex and the breakup that messed me up for some time. Their was time that i didn't want to go on and I know that was so stupid in thinking. He moved on and so must I. Now most would say that i shouldn't even think back on things with him but their was so much good that came from that relationship that defines who I am today and I thank him for that. The good times so far overshadow what was bad(which was just the way it came to a end) and that I thank him from the bottom of my heart. He will always have a spot in my heart and that doesn't mean I will hope he will come back to me one day at all, that ship has sailed. It means that he just meant alot to me and I will never forget the good times we had, I think everyone feels that no matter how much they may say they don't. And even with everything that happens I would still be his friend and talk but that is as far as that will ever go. So hugs to you Michael if you read this and good luck in your life and relationships i wish you the best.

Present:
And for the present. I am finding I am so happy again ,a place that I thought would never be again, and yet I find I'm excited and at the same time scared of what is in the future for me. I have met and found someone that has sparked life in me again like no other has before and I am so thankful to have him in my life. Everyday spent with him I find we are getting closer and finding more and more in common so I'm looking forward to the future. All I can say is this weekend was AWESOME, hugs babe.

Future:
The future ,,hmmmmm ,,,well as I said before I'm excited and scared in what it has for store for me but now that I have someone to share it with I think all one can do is face it head on and with my eyes open, which is more than I can do when I'm on a roller-coaster. Now that I say that isn't life like a roller-coaster ,,,your on the ride no matter what , and what happens , happens and you have to take what you learn and move on to the next hill,lope, drop and twist and deal with the best you can because once the ride starts their is no turning back. For those of you that know me you know I hate roller-coasters, or at least thought I was which is something else William helped me with this year at Kings Island. But unlike the rides (that I kept my eyes closed and most likely screamed like a silly school girl)i was on , I am ready to face what this ride has to offer me as long as I have friends , family , and of course Rob by my side. Hugs to everyone

THE ROLLER COASTER OF LIFE(The Best Ride of All Time)
So in closing the ride is about ready to take off but knowing i have Rob and all my family and friends on here with me Im ready so lets GGGGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TO THE FUTURE

Hello everyone. Hope all is well with all my friends. Things are going real good here , just laying here in bed and thinking lord I need to get up and get some stuff done. Lets see what all has to be done.
1. Check on my car I'm having painted ,,lord they have had it a month. All I can say is it better be a damn good one when I get it back,,,lol.
2. Pay bills,,,,arrrrrggggggg,,,,does it ever end.
3. Run errands for mom hehehe,,which is always easy ,,she is great and been dealing with me coming out to her.
4. Oh yea and go to work,,,even bigger arrrrrrrgggggg than paying bills,,eheheh.
5. And lets not forget being giddy happy over having a great guy im my life and cant wait till I get to see him ,,,one day and counting(Hugs Rob).

This week has been good at work , nobody has tried to kill me so its all good,hehehe. Just been working running errands, talking to friends and Rob and so looking forward to a relaxing weekend with him GRRRRRRRRRR. Be getting in Columbus early friday so I think I will check into the job thing and see what's available.

Now for rant and rammblings:

Why is it that it seems like drivers are getting more stupid by the day.(And those of you who know what i do for a living are going to love this). Just yesterday had a few cars that were going past me on a four line highway in a area that is known for speed traps and what I call Bubba Copville, so im just going the speed limit as they speed by ,when all of a sudden here comes Bubba Cop across the grass to our side to come after them.....hehhehe. Well the one in a Dodge Durango that had just passed me slows of course in the fast lane and runs beside me but right up a bit from me ,which in turn is blocking the fast lane for the cop(BBBBIIIIGGGGG NO NO) and they just stay their like idiots all the while he is behind them with lights and all on. They had enough room to get over but did they ,,,NO,,,,so I slow even farther down do they come over ,,,,,NO,,,,,not at first then they must have finialy got the hint and moved over. If i was that cop i would have pulled that dumpass over also,,ehehhe,,,but thats just me. I have many others and might share with you from time to time, but I think just one today is good,LOL. Im on the road all the time so I see all kinds of things that just scare the hell out of me, now Im not the greatest driver , I have had my share of things happen , haven't we all , but lord. HEHEHEHEh,,,just thinking ,,,,as long as the dear stay out of my way I"m usually good,,,but this is coming from someone that has hit two in less than a year, fist one close to 4,000 in damage , then the last one did close to 7,000 and they didnt total it. Oh well that is the life.
OMG ...have to tell one more . Since I got my car back just over a month ago from the dear hit, it has almost got hit twice since, both of them having something to do with me either going to Krogers or coming from,,,,. The First was a guy merging into my lane from a side street without so much as even looking my way to see if their was anyone to yeild for all the while talking on the cell. I was so close to getting the one remaining factory fender on my car torn off it wasn't even fuuny. The other was someone changing lanes without even looking to see if someone was beside them(this has happend twice come to think of it). Ok guess I should shut up now,,hehehehe,,,,so what im trying to say is what I think they use to start off every episode of I think Hill Street Blues many years ago,,,,,,"Hey Lets Be Carefull Out Their", because what I have found we are surrounded by idiots. Take care everyone. Hugs.

Well here I am setting in front of the computer when I should really be doing some work around the house. Oh well it will still be their when i get to it,,eheheh.
Last week was the useual boring work week and i'm so looking forward to finding something else soon, witch brings me to my so looking forward to the future. I have been wanting to move to Columbus for some time since i have family and great friends(Tim, Herb, Johnny, Scott, Michael,and lord much more sorry if i missed anyone) and now have met someone that means alot to me and I'm finding that im growing fonder of each time we talk and see each other(hugs and kisses Rob).
I have been spending the weekends with Rob getting to know him and finding that I'm truly happy again ,,a place that I didn't think i would ever find again. So thank you again Rob for showing me that I can again be happy again. I'm so lucky to have him in my life building a great friendship and relationship with him and so looking forward to what this has in store for us.
Last weekend was a great one again just hanging out with Rob. We walked down to the Short North for the Gallery hop and had dinner at the Happy Greek then walked back to the house(man i need to do more walking ,ehehehe). Then some friends wanted to bars ,so we went to Tradewinds and had fun dancing(and this is something i used to never do,,but like it now,,,,and even better when its with someone you want to dance with hehe,,wink wink,,hummmm,,wonder who that could be?). While at Tradewinds I can say we saw some sights that me and Rob both wish our friend William could have seen,,,,,lord i need a camara. All I can say is I had a great time out with Rob and his friends luv you guys.

Hello everyone. Just recovering from a great Halloween Weekend. Have to say it was one of my best Halloween weekends every because i got to spend it with a great guy, and i sure hated to have to come back home.
Started out on Friday having the day off and doing laundry(ewwwwww, how i hate doing that) then paying bills(hate that to,ehehhe). Met a very close friend and his roomate(who is also one of his ex's,,,intersteing,,hmmmmm,,,,hehehehheheh) and the sweet lady that the live with for lunch at Max and Ermas(god i love that place)in Hungton WV and had a blast catching up on things. Wish i could have visited longer but i needed to get going so i could get to Columbus to meet up with Rob. Man it was raining like crazy and was seeing all kinds of wreaks(why is it nowone knows how to drive in rain or snow,,lord) and one was a very very bad one just north of Waverly which tied me up in traffic for a bit(i was like oh no here we go again ,,,being i got in one last weekend that took me 1 and a 1/2 hours to move 2 miles at Circleville,,arrrrggggggg). Anyway it gets cleared and get to Columbus without anymore wreaks thank god and get to spend a great weekend with a great guy im growing fonder of all the time. We have so much in common , get along great, well lord i could go on and on,,but you get the idea,,hehehe. So we go out to eat at this great place and head back to just relax and watch some movies,,,ahhhhhhhhh,,,great times ,,,great times.
Sat was spent just hanging out and listing to music that we both like and he has mixed himself. He really has a great collection that i dont think i would ever have enough time to go thru,,heheh. I visited with my friend Tim that had the heart-attack last weekend a bit while Rob was getting ready to take a walk to get something to eat(lord do i ever need to do some more walking ,,ehheheh), and im so happy to see that Tim is doing much better and has decided to stay in Columbus. His cable internet was down so i set up my laptop for him to use while i was gone so he could check all his mail and chat with his buddies on 411 . While i was over at Tims a friend of Robs called and invited us to a party in Dayton and that he would get ahold of us on the details later,,which i said was cool since i have rarely got to go to anything like that. We set off on our walk and it was so windy it took my breath away at times but i guess i have to get use to that in Columbus,,ehehe. So we get to the OSU area to eat and a game was going on and their was red shirts everywhere. On the way back we check out some cool new/used music shops,,,,i love collecting old records so i was trying to find ones that i dont have yet. Soon we get the call from Robs friend to ok the plans for going to the party so we are off on our Dayton adventure soon,eheheheh,,,,. When we get their thier are so many cars its hard to find a place to park so we have to find a place like one or two streets away and walk back to the house and when we get thier and inside its filled wall to wall with guys and decorated to the hilt. I have to say i had a great time at the party and getting to meet some of Robs close friends was great as well.
Sunday morning,,,,arrrrrggggggg,,,,i dont wanna leave,,eheheheh,,but i have to go back home and work all day ,,,ehhehe,,,it was interesting at work by the way,,,with only 3 1/2 hours of sleep,,ehehehehe,,,but i made it thru. I do so miss him and cant wait till next weekend. I to have been scared about this (have had a bad breakup as i have said) but i feel so good with him and we get along so well i cant wait to see what the futrure holds for us,,,but whatever it is it will be great i know. Hugs to you Rob,,,,and oh yea i can't forget my friends hugs to you guys as well,,,,,

Hello again everyone. Well i just got back from Kroger's and it seems i guess that it is never for lack of entertainment. First i was talking to my friend shelbycub on the phone while in the magazine aisle and getting overheard by other customers ,,which lead to funny looks,,ehehehe,,,oh well. Second i was their looking over ,you guessed it Fast Ford and Muscle Mustangs for those of you that know me,,ehehe, and this women maybe in here late forty's was looking at Better Homes ,when all of a sudden a song from the sixty's i would say came out of the speaker system. So their we are looking over our magazines and hearing "chain chain chain,,,,chain of fools" when Mrs. Better Homes starts singing along with the song and swaying this way and that.....lord i was trying not to crack up. Now what done it in and i had to make a quick escape is when she started getting really into and moving real good,,,,,,lord i was like "Where are the cameras". All I needed to hear at the point is if the next song was "Their coming to take us away ha ha he he,,,to the funny farm ". And i really needed to go to Wal-Mart but i don't think i could take what would have more than likely happened their,,,ehehehhehe, i will save that for tonight or tomorrow.
Also its getting close to the weekend and so looking forward to seeing Rob friday. It has been so nice talking to him and getting to know him better, and still finding things in common. BIG HUGS to him and all my friends. Till next time

Hello everyone. This is my first entry in my livejoural. So be genital with me .......here we go........


Ok im setting here waiting till its time to go to work and going over things in my life that i have been dealing with that include going thru a very painful breakup and wondering if their is any reason to go on(that was back a few months ago) and now knowing how silly that was and that I can and will be better than ever and find someone that is worth giving my heart to in time. Also deciding that its time in my life for a change in where I live and most likely where I work, so i'm checking into both of those. I have found new friends(you all know who you are,,,but over time i'm sure they will leave me comments on here and everyone will know them,hugs you guys) and keeping in touch with old friends that have helped me alot in times of need. Friends are very special to me and are near and dear to my heart. One can never have to many friends I always hear that and agree with 100%.

Last weekend was a major turning point in my life I think......A dear friend of mine had a heart-attack(slight one and doing much better) and I thought omg what if I had lost him, I mean other than my father(more about that later maybe) I haven't lost anyone really close to me in some time and the thought of it scared the hell out of me(which I didn't tell anyone how much it did,,,,for some reason I don't know how to express how I really feel about stuff like that very good , so I think to most I seem to not care when really im so scared that I just don't know how to act). But when I met up with my friends shelbycub and some others and went over to see him and know for sure and see it with my own eyes that he was going to be ok it made me feel better. And to know that me and my friends cheered him up made me feel much better. And lastly and best of all I got to meet someone that I have talked to before but never got to meet and we hit it off quite well I think, we have alot in common and im very much looking forward to seeing where things go with him, hugs and kisses to him.

Well I have to get going now, so I hope my first entry doesn't sound to crazy. I will get better at this over time i'm sure. Hugs again to everyone and looking forward to working on this more and more.